Convinced

My incredibly horrible Tuesday started off with Jeff and I fighting about my job/our money situation. It's the same fight we've had since I started working for the Coalition and it's the same fight we'll have till either he gets a job or something else comes up for me. The problem with that last part is this: just like anyone else I know in the Village, I've turned in, at least, 40 applications to places around Johnson City and have been turned down by each of them (or not called back, which is the same thing). To me, the Coalition is an incredible blessing. To Jeff, it's not making ends meet. Don't get me wrong: I've still been looking for a job that will help us out a bit more (if that means a full-time job, then I'll make time to volunteer at the Rock), but...there's a still-small voice inside of me that tells me I'm not done at the Coalition just yet and I believe it. I heard this voice once before, when I found out my parents were getting divorced, and chose to ignore it, only to be told the very next day (by my dad) that my parents were indeed getting divorced. I know this voice is God and I can't ignore it. If He's telling me that there's still work for me at the Coalition, then I'll work there as long as He needs me to. I have absolutely no problem with that. I love my job, love the kids I tutor, and I love all of my co-workers (even the ones I'm just now getting to know better). No, I don't make much money, but I know in my heart of hearts that this is where God wants me and, if that's the case, then I know He's blessing my family through the work I'm doing. This is one of those times when I'm actually glad I can't see the bigger picture because I'm so incredibly happy with the smaller picture. 

"If our minds are ruled by our desires, we will die. But if our minds are ruled by the Spirit, we will have life and peace." --Romans 8:6